There Is Nothing Chai Cannot Fix

Last night was a horrible night. I'd been having one of those low self-esteem weeks, and I had a major jealousy attack. I hate feeling something icky like that, which only makes me feel bad for feeling icky about someone. Vicious cycle. (We're allowed to be conversational in these things, right?) Anyway, I ended up crying in the bathroom while everyone else went to Starbucks. Nobody even asked if I wanted to come. So I called my ex, who was with the group, and yelled at him for not letting me know that they were all going. He asked if I wanted him to pick anything up for me, and I snapped back that I only wanted to go along and no I don't want anything. In the background I hear the person who caused me to flip out having fun and being disgustingly perky. The nerve! I finally let him talk me into letting him get me a chai eggnog latte, and everything was better.

"You simply can’t make someone love you if they don’t. You must choose someone who already loves you. If you choose someone who does not love you, this is the sort of love you must want."

-- Israel Horovitz Playwright/screenwriter, from his new play, The Secret of Mme. Bonnard's Bath.